I can't take it anymore. It's seriously too much... Firstly, there's bio and math test next week. I totally don't get bio since mdm loh had pretty much been away and bio lessons was always taken over by other lessons.. Then math is still blur like crazy.. And not forgetting rushing of storyboard and filming which is due on monday and week 7 respectively..
Then there's shicheng performance. Which I don't think I can make it.. I'm seriously not up to standard.. And I don't think I'm any good at all.. Why did dls even chose me in the first place.. That's like his greatest mistake... I'm gonna screw the whole performance up.. Then it'll be all my fault.. Well, it is my fault.. I'll never be as good. Never be what they expect of me.. If they even expect anything..
Lastly there's piano exam.. I haven't memorised scale.. Am still going crazy over oral notes and still haven't mastered all my pieces.. I only mastered half of nocturne, prelude part of my prelude and fugue and my mozart.. That's like 2 out of 3 pieces.. And how long is it till exam day? 3 weeks? Or less? I don't want to have to retake my exam.. It's not only because of the exam costs (which is freakin high for grade 8), but also not to disappoint my teacher and all.. It's my mistake for not practicing hard enough at the start, but there's like not much time for me to do anything anymore these days (with project and all).. It's not that I don't like piano. I can say its my favourite instrument.
Oh yes.. The best thing of all is that I'm sick with flu.. How lucky am I? After my ulcer is almost healed here comes the most irritating thing that could happen.. Sneezing every few seconds and now even coughing.. Gosh.. Lucky lucky me..
Please tell me how I'm going to die.. Oh no, wait.. I already know..
Do you ever feel like breaking down
Do you ever feel out of place
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away
Do you lock yourself in your room
With the radio on turned up out loud
That no one hears you screaming
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked, when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what its like
Welcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else
Are you sick of feeling so left out
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate
Are you sick of everyone around
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked, when you're down
Feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
With no one there to save you
No you don't know what its like
Welcome to my life
No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy
But I'm not going to be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
Never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like
What it's like
To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked, when you're down
Feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
With no one there to save you
No you don't know what its like (what it's like)
Welcome to my life
Oh yes.. The only good thing that happened today.. We say 987 DJs today!! Took picture with Dan and Young! :D And also saw justin from muttons to midnight. Haha. Their so hilarious
