Went out for dinner at NYNY again. This time with the eunices (tan and lee), linda and YIHUI (amazingly..). I swear everytime we meet up we make lots and lots of noise. It just somehow happens. Last time it was just yihui, eunices and I. Now with linda? More noise!

Did quite some catching up today. Hopefully we'll successfully keep our dates (once per month dinner-ing after CCA!). Haha. It feels so fun and carefree just dinner-ing out like that. But our lives catches up with us when it all ends. And it's back to our boring and mundane lives doing the same thing over and over again.

Wake up. Go to school. Study. CCA. Go home. Do work. Slack off but do nothing. Sleep. (multipled by infinity)

There's always too little time. And so many things to do..

I don't think I can do it. It's not that I don't believe in myself or others.. It's just logical thinking. That's how things are right now. I don't know what else I can do to help anymore. I'm tired.

There's so many things I have to get done. But I don't know where to start and how to get it done. It's just piling up and up and up. I swear I'm going to go crazy one day. Or I'll die of exhaustion or something.

I'm just not as strong as I should be.

Now all I can do is take it one at a time. I feel bad always handing things up late and all. But.. Maybe I'm just procrastinating and these are all excuses.

Oh well. Life was never interesting anyways.

I'm a happy person. I think.

I want people ESPECIALLY my friends to be happy too. This I'm sure of.


I'm so amused by the current OBSESSION over a certain... by certain..... HAHA. I just don't get it really xD This is too hilarious and fun to watch.

我想要成為你的眼
把最美的風景 收進你的心中
我想要成為你的手
好讓我 從現在到以後
佔有你溫柔 一刻不放過

恨不得把明天沒收
讓你永遠不會變動
專注的愛著我

我愛你沒有保留
我愛你就到最後
有些人值得等候
有些悲傷值得忍受

我愛你不是衝動
生命盡頭反正一場空
只要你記得 我們那麼愛過

我要替你收集笑容
怕未來 快樂變得貴重
要是少了我 你有多寂寞

恨不得把明天沒收
讓你永遠不會變動
專注的愛著我

我愛你沒有保留
我愛你就到最後
有些人值得等候
有些悲傷值得忍受

我愛你不是衝動
生命盡頭反正一場空
只要你記得 我們那麼愛過

太陽不會放棄天空
哪怕你不再屬於我
我會在不同的窗口 給你擁抱

我愛你沒有保留
我愛你就到最後
有些人值得等候
有些悲傷值得忍受

我愛你不是衝動
生命盡頭反正一場空
只要你記得 我們那麼愛過

我忘不掉 你第一次吻我

My stamina is running out.

This tired-ness is just accumulating non-stop day by day.

But I'll get over it. I promise, I swear.

I'll drive it away, get it out of my sight.

It'll be over soon.. Someday, one day..

I feel like I'm going to make some speech before I die. But I guess that's half true.

To that few (you know who you are..)

Thank you for the help you gave me tonight.
Thank you for understanding.
Thank you for comforting me.
Thank you for trying to cheer me up.
Thank you for encouraging me.
Thank you for listening to me.
Thank you for being there for me.

This is my problem, so it's okay, you don't need to do anything about it. I'm just glad that you're there. I'm so touched I feel like crying now. But.. I'LL STAY STRONG!

・・ Songjia is a stupid girl blexxx ··· ````` ℡ mч.ъēs+.íǒvē・・ says:

the first part is like dawn in the forest
then happily play 22
then the
behind part is moth became butterfly

It may seem pointless.. But at least it made me LOL (:

It'll all get better in time..

I'm a survey freak. Never once am I able to resist the temptation to try one.. xD

001. Real name → Chong Yi Jing
002. Nickname(s)→ Ermm. Jing jing? HAHA
004. Zodiac sign → pisces!
005. Male or female → female
006. Elementary → some PAP
007. Middle School → White Sands Primary School
008. High School → Dunman High School
010. Hair color → Black
011. Long or short → Long I guess..
012. Loud or Quiet → Quiet xD (ignores what others say)
013. Sweats or Jeans → Jeans
014. Phone or Camera → CAMERA PHONE!
015. Health freak → health is below my list of worries.
016. Drink or Smoke? → NEVER!
017. Do you have a crush on someone? → HMMM...
018. Eat or Drink → drink xD
019. Piercings → 1 on each ear
020. Tattoos → Nope.

FIRSTS:
023. First piercing → (I have no idea why it suddenly jumped to 23) Long long ago..
026. First crush → Primary 3 or 4. I fell in love with this adorable little humongous husky.
027. First pet → My pet goldfish which I buried it downstairs T.T
030. First big birthday → I forgot.. When I was a baby?

CURRENTLY:
049. Eating → Naahh. It's what time already..
050. Drinking → Nope.
052. I'm about to → GO AND SLEEP!
053. Listening to → Silence...
054. Plans for today → Finish this quiz in my last 4 mins of today.
055. Waiting for → BEDTIME!

YOUR FUTURE:
058. Want kids? → Of course (:
059. Want to get married? → Yeah duhh..
060. Careers in mind → Vet or anything medicine related
068. Lips or eyes → eyes!
070. Shorter or taller? → grow taller!
072. Romantic or spontaneous → Both?
073. Nice stomach or nice arms → BOTH??
074. Sensitive or loud → Definitely sensitive (:
075. Hook-up or relationship → relationship -.-
076. Trouble maker or hesitant → trouble maker!

HAVE YOU EVER:
080. Lost glasses/contacts → Never ever.
081. Ran away from home → nope -.-
082. Held a gun/knife for self defense → I held a knife. To defend myself from onions and potatoes..
083. Killed somebody → mosquitoes and ants.
084. Broken someone's heart → I hope not ><
087. Cried when someone died → Definitely T.T

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
089. Yourself → Most of the time, no ):
090. Miracles → Hopefully ><
091. Love at first sight → Nope, definitely no.
092. Heaven → Nope.
093. Santa Claus → Never in my life -.-
094. Sex on the first date → Way out of the question -.-
095. Kiss on the first date → I don't think so.. =/

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
097. Is there one person you want to be with right now → Santa claus! -.- Hmm.. Maybe, I think, I guess.. Yeah xD
098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life → Not really. But nothing is perfect right? (: I'll get there... Someday!
099. Do you believe in God → Nope..
100. Post as 100 truths and tag 20 people → Errmm -.- No?

Group photo! Haha. Love you guys girls.

I feel so fortunate to have such pretty and nice friends :D

Outing with JYM today was amazing. It was part present shopping and part dinner/photo-taking session. Haha.

Present shopping turned out quite successful, and we bought this super adorable 'moody' bag from some cute shop at marina square. Then ended up having to burn at least 1 hour walking around waiting for marinah to come. Quite amazing.. We went to marina square to buy marinah's present (: I saw so many adorable things at marinah square. Got to save money and start buying stuff for myself again soon. HAHA

Then after we finally met up, we decided to go NYNY to eat. Found some 'HOLE' to sit in. Haha. It's super cool, like a small (or not so small) compartment to sit in. I ended up not finishing my food.. It was really filling!

The pictures are in no order >< Cause I'm lazy to arrange it now. Haha. And I'll post somemore after I got the pics from Jayce and MM's camera (:

I shall start by posting some pictures first.. TADA! Congratulations xD

Happy birthday my darling but sometimes paedophilic and baichiSMART friend LINDA :D

Don't even know if you'll see this, but...

MUST HAVE A GOOD AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY K? AND SORRY WE HAVE TO GIVE YOU A BELATED PRESENT THO WE BOUGHT IT LIKE CENTURIES AGO. HAHA. AND DON'T BE SAD OVER RESULTS. CAN JIAYOU AND GET BETTER!

ANOTHER REASON TO BE A HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRL IS BECAUSE... I HAVE ALREADY DEDICATED MY PM AND NOW THIS POST TO YOU~!! :D

*SINGS*
Happy birthday to you~~
Happy birthday to you~~
Happy birthday to LINDA~~
Happy birthday to you~~!

Super nice lyrics and songs. Haha. And because I obviously can't read or understand the jap lyrics, here's the eng meaning. xD

Papermoon - Tommy Heavenly6

I'm falling down into my shadow
Your breath is hidden
Wait for me deadly night
Don't be scared

The presence of your smile amongst the flowering trees is reflected into your gaze
See you in your dreams, yeah baby
As for those nightmares
For your sake, fairy blue
I want to smash it and display it for all to see, that black paper moon
Because you gave me the belief in myself
When you're lost, here I am, forever with your soul
When I glance upwards, you glisten like the moon

That sweet scarlet jam in that ensnaring garden raises it to the surface
Your destiny, the kind of world that you would desire
Grasp it with those hands, no evil deed shall be done, nobody will be scared again

Fairy blue, you have given me the reason why I live on
A bond that is eternal
Because you sent for me, I will find you, my dear, no matter where you go
Now that you grasp it tightly, don't let that moment slip

Don't believe in anyone, oppression and time always exist
So then your words will always be in my heart, day after day

For your sake, fairy blue, I want to crush and display for all to see, that mark
Stop getting lost in those dreams
I want to escape with that moment

Fairy blue, you have given me the reason why I live on
A bond which I trust
You're not alone
When you're lost, here I am, forever with your soul
I'll be struggling along with you, trust me

[and now you're here.] says:
eh sorry lor. mine's not
fast and furious hor.
mine's errr.
WINDSURFING.

Haha Jiamin, your quotes are just adorable xD Let's 加油 and make mission impossible, POSSIBLE! (:

Chemistry is over. I feel more free now.

Now left to study for physics pop quiz and do abit of homework. And then there's LA journal on friday. And I heard of a 1000 word history essay again.

Wow.. So freeeeee... *sarcasm*

And then there's a XZZ meeting tmr for who knows what. At least no more chuida. HAHA.

The good thing is...

GOING OUT WITH JAYCE AND MM ON SUNDAY! WHEE! MISS YOU GUYS LIKE CRAZY! :D WE MUST SPAM PHOTOES!

Here comes another week of school.

And already, chemistry is haunting my once-but-not-really-peaceful-anymore life. I don't know why we have to memorise so many of all these. My brain has like NO MORE memory space.

Time, time, time.. It all comes down to that..

I conclude..

CHEMISTRY IS EVIL.. But it's still not as evil as math.

Who knows when I'll get back my peaceful life. How I hope I could just escape from all these work. To live in my own world, my little 'paradise', carefree and without any worries. To be a king, or maybe queen of my own life. Not having to answer to anyone, not having to live up to other's expectations. To be who I am, whenever, wherever. To choose what I want to do with my life. To not be judge by people around me. To that place where I really belong.

But of course, that's impossible.

Who knows if I'll even get close to seeing this paradise of mine, my ideal wonderland. Probably not I suppose.

Oh no no no.. I was watching DVD just now when I realised there's like so many new movies coming soon ><

BRIDE WARS! Wanted to watch it at first but didn't went in the end T.T

CIRQUE DU FREAK! Darren shan's vampire chronicles! Oh my god I can't believe they actually have a movie. WAHH! Vampire chronicles ROCKS (: But it's like non-existant in the cinemas T.T

PINKPANTHER 2! Which is like coming out SOON! Haha. Pinkpanther is like Iowa's movie addiction xD

HOTEL FOR DOGS! Coming out 2 days before my birthday. How can I not watch a show with so many cute and adorable puppies. xD

ANGELS AND DEMONS! This one is a really MUST MUST MUST watch show! It's like so much better than da vinci. 14 May.. That's about 3 months later. I CAN'T WAIT xD

ICE AGE 3 and NIGHT AT THE MUSEUM 2! Two other crazy shows. I think I watched night at the museum like 2 times in the cinema last time. Haha. One was during suona outing if I'm not wrong (:

Okok.. BACK TO MUGGING! ><

阿信:对不起刚才我是不是听错 还是我想太多想到了昏头

丁当:天气不错开了窗吹走脸红

阿信:进一步退一步都害怕打破 更不想在原地永远作朋友

丁当:给你线索也给我勇敢藉口 下定决心沈默

阿信:就让沈默为我们追究

丁当:你和我

阿信:这一刻

丁当:无声的

阿信:耳语交流

合:却突然震耳欲聋

阿信:一字一句一瞬间走了火

丁当:一天一点一转眼入了魔

阿信:忘了我从什麽时候

丁当:忘了你为什麽能够让我

合:一步一步走火入魔

丁当:和我~

阿信:一直猜一直想一直的揣摩 一直到你变成甜蜜的心痛

丁当:如果可以把如果变成结果 下定决心执着

阿信:就让执着为我们突破

丁当:我和你

阿信:的小说

丁当:这时候

阿信:出现烟火

合:让情节充满感动

阿信:一字一句一瞬间走了火

丁当:一天一点一转眼入了魔

阿信:如果你有相同感受

丁当:感受到有种突然的冲动

合:放肆一次走火入魔

阿信:和我

丁当:和我~

走火入魔 is a super nice song. I can't believe I've been looping this for 4 days straight already. I like 阿信's voice. Though he can never win 李玖哲's voice. HAHA.

Have so many homework to complete today. LA journal and math assignment. Still have to study for chemistry test. I seriously don't like chemistry. You have to study SO many things. And remember SO many things. I just don't get it!

And trigo can seriously kill your brain. I'm very sure of that. It's definitely not fun ):

Hmppff...

Nevermind! I CAN DO IT! :D

JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU!

*off to chiong homework*

Had a tiring CO rehearsal as usual. Woke up so early in the morning and my phone screwed up all of a sudden. It hanged then went 'no signal'. ARGH.. Was trying to settle it and before I knew it, it was so late already. SORRY! ><

Rehearsal was as kind of screwed up I suppose. I was practically half-asleep. But luckily, my huanghe solo was ok. I don't think it's really that good yet, but I'll improve! :D

Then we had practice for chuida and went for lunch. I really don't have any appetite. Or maybe it was the food. Too sweet strawberry sundae and too salty fries. Ended up eating really really little before I went home.

Thank you.

It's valentines again! This time all my letters are so last minute, I'm SO SORRY!

Still have 2 more bottles of happy pill to write before I'm done. And it's 1230am already! I have to leave my house at 540am! What happened to sleep?

I'm going to have a tiring day tmr. CO again.. But I'm surely looking forward to giving out my cards and chocs. Again.. SORRY to those I didn't write to >< I have my reasons. HAHA. So here's a mass valentines "card" for everyone.

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY! (or friendship day) It's finally that time of the year
again and we're all spamming presents and going bankrupt. But it's fun isn't it?
At least from my point of view. (I realised it sounded a little sadistic 0.0) So
anyway.. All the best to all of you guys and girls out there. And have a
wonderful year ahead!

And you know, I realised writing cards are so much more difficult than writing an essay. In a way... Haha.

Oh no.. I'm nervous.

I don't know what's wrong with me.

I should be doing homework and studying yet here I am.


Can I just give up? Should I just give up?

I don't know what to think, what to do. It's killing me from the inside.

I want to lead a meaningful life.

I don't want to spend my life just studying day in and day out, going for CO practices, going home to waste and burn my time, sleep, then repeat everything over again.

I don't want to be kept in the dark, I don't want to play any guessing games anymore.

I want this all to hurry end.

Sacrifices.. Is there any reasons for it? I suppose, it all goes down the drain in the end..

猜不透 is a nice song.

猜不透
你最近时好时坏的沉默
我也不想去追问太多
让试探为彼此的心上了锁

猜不透
相处会比分开还寂寞
两个人都只是得过且过
无法感受每次触摸是真的是热的

如果忽远忽近的洒脱
是你要的自由
那我宁愿回到一个人生活

如果忽冷忽热的温柔
是你的借口
那我宁愿对你从没认真过

到底这感觉谁对谁错
我已不想追究
越是在乎的人越是猜不透

History can kill your brain.

You know, I have no idea why I'm learning history anyways. Firstly, I'm not going to be a historian. And I don't think any 'A-H attacking Serbia' or 'Germany rising power' or 'Balance of power' or 'Alliance' is going to help in my future.

Even though history is interesting, but they should just name it as a 'LISTENING' and 'UNDERSTANDING' subject where you don't need to write any pointless essays about dead man and the past.

[let's burn a hole so we can climb out.] says:
iron dice is nothing.
franz ferdinand is dead anyway
and the kaiser is rotting in his grave

Sometimes I can't help but get a little jealous.

Inferiority complex. It's a serious, incurable disease.


It's been a tiring day. As usual. I can't wait for a weekends again. That's like the only thing I'm looking forward to these days. Slept earlier last night and I realise I lasted longer AWAKE. So I'm going to sleep early again today. Go early to school and MUGG! ><

And then there's fenzu and chuida again.

G.G

Still have to do hist essay, math assignment and study bio.. GOOD LUCK =.=

I feel like I've wasted my weekend away.

Was switching between homework and CD through the weekend. Play, work, chat, play, work, chat. I have no life.

And today, here I am going out again. Apparantly it ended up as dizis+me again. Happy spending.

At least look on the bright side. My wallet will be so much lighter after today.

Or is that a bad thing 0.o

Oh yes it is...

Talking to youself: first signs of going bonkers.

Another tiring day with chuida afterwards. At least the 3 longest days of the week is over. Oh wait. There's still friday =.=

Luckily saturday's rehearsal is cancelled. I seriously need time to study during the weekends. Hopefully I don't waste my time AGAIN..

But sadly, it was moved to... 14 FEBRUARY! There goes valentines day. Or maybe for me it'd be like friendship day. Haha. I haven't bought my valentines presents yet, I don't know what to buy! Hehe. Hopefully I could receive something nice too. I remember last year I got some cookies, sweet, small stuff toys and some other cute stuff. Haha. I've almost always got quite nice things from angel and mortal - chocs and stuff... At least in guanyue. HAHA. *hints to my GY angel*. AHEM.. You know what to do (:


To enjoy the present. Hope for the future. Dream big and you never know what will happen.

It's worthless to look back and worry about what's going to come next. I don't want to live a life like that. Definitely not.

I'll do my best. I promise you. I'll make you proud.

Let me believe in myself this once. Let this dream come true.

I want to be able to look forward to every new day when I wake up. To wake up without groaning and complaining. To wake up looking forward to........

I'll wait for that day.. I'll look forward to it. To that day when I can smile with no worries again.

I feel like I've just hit a brick wall.

There's no turning back, but I can't move forward either.

It's tiring..

I want to just get over with this, once and for all.

No more delays, no more trouble.

Please.. Give me the strength to carry on.

I don't know what's going on.

I don't know what will happen.

I don't know where this will go.

I don't know anything.

Maybe it's best not to know.

Innocence Is Bliss

I think lack of sleep is getting to my head. I've been Zzz-ing during class for a few days in a row already, and chuida pracs are going to kill me someday. I think it was since CNY hols ended. Arghh. I want the weekends again!

How I wish the weekends could go on forever ><

I'm trying to get used to windows vista. It's not working very well..

And of course the horrible trouble of transfering things from itunes to iphone. RAWRR. I'm going crazy.

At least now I have a few movies to entertain me for awhile. And now new songs (:

Been busy playing Celestial Destroyer. And of course trying to complete my homework inbetween. Physics is really horrible. I hate energy. ARRGGHHHH!

Hopefully I won't screw up pop tomorrow.

GOOD LUCK!

It's back to mugging life.