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Sunday, March 29, 2009


路太弯

10:58 PM

路太弯 - 潘玮柏

我 在这里
计算终点的距离
下一站
有没有更期待的结局

眼 闭上眼
看不看得见过去
看不看得见
原来那个你
和幸福的关系

路太弯 梦在转
错过的人已不在
以为我 能习惯
一个人的安全感

路太弯 爱在转
明知忘记会很难
我一路上 跌跌撞撞
却找不回拥抱的形状

付出过是不是就换得回希望
呼吸太乱 世界太宽
缘份毕竟太短
我一路上 跌跌撞撞
却找不回拥抱的形状

Heard this song on MTV asia recently. Emo song T.T Made me feel like crying when I heard it.



Sushi
12:45 AM

My ambition is...

To work in a japanese conveyer belt sushi stall so I can steal their sushi and have it for breakfast, lunch and dinner :D


Saturday, March 28, 2009


Sick once again

5:49 PM

It's been so long since I cried again. I guess everything just piled up too high. It feels so good to release it all out at once. I'll be better, I hope.

But now I'm really really seriously sick *sniff* I need more tissuee T.T


I'll never let another teardrop fall


Playlist: Happily Never After - Backstreet Boys
version

What's lost cannot be replaced. So to me, it doesn't matter cause buying something similar won't make a difference. I'm just being childish, but no one will understand.




100 reasons to curse
2:02 PM

And they're all the same.. T.T


Ok. That was random. I decided to skip posting about msia trips and such already. Pics are on facebook, so yah. That's all. HAHA.

I shouldn't have dinnered at macs ytd. Fries and ice-cream... It's killing my throat! Zzzz. But besides that, I don't mind dinnering. Heheh :D It's nice to dinner out once in a while!


Thursday, March 26, 2009


Country Life

8:37 PM

I feel so stressed these few days.. That's why I don't feel like wasting my energy to act all happy and positive anymore. I want to just be negative about everything.. I'm just not that strong afterall.

I can't get myself to sit down and just concentrate on studying. Everytime I start studying I'll start pacing around and find means and ways to get out of studying. I WANT to start studying now.. I NEED to start studying now. Zzzz..

My brain is just not functioning well. After being spammed tests after tests, school after school, CO after CO... I think it's normal I'm going crazy.

My goal in life is to lead a relaxed and easy-going life and to do things I actually feel it's worth it and enjoyable. (this doesn't mean sch and co is not fun of course :D)

So this busy and stress filled life is like so wrong.

I want to live in a countryside at some farm. With nice sceneries, with nature, with lots of adorable animals..

I want to live with no worries, no troubles...

That's like so impossible.. T.T

I should go to sleep and start dreaming now.. That's why sleep is so good :D HAHA!


Saturday, March 21, 2009


LA PW

11:15 PM

I hate PW... I really really really hate PW...

I'm like crapping my way through sort of repeating the same nonsense again and again. And I think my campaign will be stupid and normal. Totally un-unique.

At least I'm done with the survey. Now my brain is bursting. I think I'm going to fall sick soon. I feel super unwell T.T



Survey
12:30 PM

Malaysia trip was so fun. But I can't post about it now cause I'm loaded with work ><

So here's a reminder to myself on what I'm suppose to post after I finish what I need to do.

Hmm.. OVERSEAS TRIP! Food project day + Guanyue gathering :D

OK. Now time to spam people again..

http://www.surveymonkey.com/s.aspx?sm=ZcKTci_2f1rcMzFnie6b_2fCfA_3d_3d

All help would be greatly appreciated :D

HAHA! I feel so evil spamming everyone. But some Dunmanians are just too adorable and gave me super cute answers which almost made me LOL and fall off my chair :D


Saturday, March 14, 2009


祝我生日快乐

12:07 AM

*starts singing*

Happy birthday to me, happy birthday to mummy :D

I'm sorry for not being able to spend our birthdays together again

This will be my last post before I leave. But at least I spammed quite a lot of posts recently to fill in for these 5 days.

Byebye world. I shall spend my lonely birthday on the bus tomorrow.

I feel old :/


Friday, March 13, 2009


Jealousy

10:35 PM

Hmm. I feel so jealous sometimes I think I'm so immature :/

Jealousy? Or is it envy? So sinful! Hahah!

*off to pack*



Holy Day
10:26 PM

Tomorrow is a holy day :D

Tomorrow is white day 白色情人节!

Hahah! I haven't finish packing :/ And I'm still procrastinating here. And because my bro's back late I can't cut my cake yet T.T

THANKS TO EVERYONE TODAY! And thanks for that ADORABLE giraffe that has a super spastic face and doesn't really look like a giraffe. And of course thanks to my DARLINGS for that puzzle :D I took some time to piece it up and haha! Your message was hmm :D

I'll be off tomorrow already. My poor phone will be like rotting and my comp will have a long rest. I'm such a geeeeeek :P




10:24 PM



Thursday, March 12, 2009


Over

11:15 PM

YES! Everything's over and done with. Now it's up to fate to decide my predicament.

I hope lady luck is with me


I was so nervous I was practically ignoring everyone around me. And when I finally walked out of the examination room with a horribly goofy smile on my face, my mum was commenting that "you finally smiled!" Haha! And it wasn't because I did exceptionally well (cause I know I didn't). It was because it's finally over!

*clap* I feel like I just dropped a 1000000 (till infinity) kg load off my shoulders :D

Somehow, my brother unknowingly treated me to a cup of mocha frappe and we then took a taxi home while my mum went off to find my dad. And of course, my brother paid more since he's always loaded. So I ended up only spending $4 out of the total $11+ of the trip.

I seriously wonder what's wrong with my phone.. Sometimes people just don't receive the message I sent out. And I'm quite sure I sent it cause it's shown in my phone.. Luckily it doesn't happen often T.T

And I finally got a new camera! Sony K77, was it? Even though it's like pink.. Haha! But it's the metallic purple-lish kind of pink. Not the baby pink which will be like super bimbo-tic for me (no offence T.T I like baby pink too, but not too much of it). I can't wait to explore it tomorrow! :D



DOOMSDAY
9:22 AM

2 hours + more till dooms day...


:/


Tuesday, March 10, 2009


Happy and Emo

9:50 PM

I'm so happy. My juniors are growing up :D I'm so proud of you all! Haha! Good luck for 泪别阳关 new version tomorrow. It's quite sad I can't hear it cause I'm not going :/

Physics test tmr! Haven't study finish =.=

But for now.. Piano is more important!

36 hours+ more to go.


Sunday, March 08, 2009


Scared

10:57 PM

Tomorrow will be the first time I go to school so late on monday (:


I've been thinking.. What if, what if, what if.. Maybe, maybe, maybe..

I really really hate these words. Why can't something ever be certain? I'm scared..

I hate to say this, but I'm not sure if I'll make it or not. Judging from today, I don't think I can adapt that fast. Will I be lucky that day? Maybe, maybe not. See? It's maybe again.

Luck.. It's partly about luck. I'm no genius, I know that.

Maybe it's 20% luck and 80% hardwork. What if I have zero luck. What if my hard work could only bring me that far, a 50% at most. One slip and I'll fall.. One slip..

I really don't want to be so negative! Arghh..

I'm really very scared.



Bored
8:42 PM

I have so many things to do, but zero motivation.

Spamming 手放开 and 情歌 now. Gosh, I'm so fickle :/ Haha.

At least my ':/' doesn't look weird here -.-

I like 手放开. Everytime I listen to that I feel like crying. It's just so touching. I think you really have to be very strong to be able to let someone go.

我给你最后的疼爱是手放开
不要一张双人床中间隔着一片海
感情的污点就留给时间慢慢漂白
把爱收进胸前左边口袋

You know. I really have alot of work left.. Noooo!

Went for ACE project today. And ended up just doing research and discussing a bit about our creative presentation. It's super interesting :D It's about..

*DRUMROLL*

I'M NOT TELLING YOU :D

Hahah! Ok. I'm zi-highing again :/

I shall hurry go off and start doing my homework and STUDY.. Oh yes.. I forgot there's 2 test to study for...

Oh no no no no no..


Saturday, March 07, 2009


竞争对手

3:17 PM

我的宝贝 宝贝 要如何爱你
爱到底 伤到底 还不分离
爱上 对手 尝尽委屈
我怎会死心塌地

哦 爱是一出戏
开始多神秘
我们拿出最好的武器
拿心撑住你 拿梦圈住我
没有一样东西不华丽
不管承诺有多少外衣
不管是否有什么意义
我们总是全心全意

哦 葬了多少心
扑了多少空
回到战场总让人窒息
为你演情戏 答案全是戏
我却不在你心里
我们之间有多少毛病
爱人之间有什么道理
There’s something waiting for me (日子充满杀气)

你要的世界如今回不去
我想的未来竟然没有你
无奈 无力 无语

我的宝贝 宝贝 要如何爱你
爱到底 伤到底 还不分离
爱上 对手 尝尽委屈
我怎会死心塌地 (怎么会死心塌地 check)

竞争对手 牵着我的手
让我一次明白你要的温柔
不要都不说 不要都不做
不要千言万语 彻底到寂寞
秘密会开花 嫉妒会结果
时间不会消灭爱人的怒火
瞬移的转弯 爱情的深夜
何时才会真的下手

竞争对手 怎么才放手
让我一次推翻对抗的念头
眼泪在颤抖 拳头在软弱
想要资本征服还是想退缩
好胜的决心 怕输的易感
就算夹倒对手我能有什么
无情不会寄托 滥情会犯错
走错方向更会坠落 (看不到那些回忆)

你要的世界如今回不去
我想的未来竟然没有你
无奈 无力 无语 (看不到那些回忆)

我的宝贝 宝贝 要如何爱你
爱到底 伤到底 还不分离 (怎么它还不分离)
爱上 对手 尝尽委屈
我怎会死心塌地 (怎么会死心塌地)

我的宝贝 宝贝 要如何爱你
爱到底 伤到底 还不分离 (怎么都还不放弃)
碰上 对手 才会着迷
你不要转身离去 (你是个竞争对手)

It's like the first time I'm looping 王力宏's songs. But it's just so addictive. Sounds like some jazzy/blues/rap song. Haha. I like the rap part best though.



Stressed
2:39 PM

5 more days to go.

I'm tired. I'm not me anymore. I don't know what to do :/

5 more days...

I can't believe it's so soon. I don't want to have to cry again. But somehow I always have this feeling that I'm not trying my best.

I tried to smile, I tried not to think about it. But you can only do that much.

When you're alone, you just can't help but think about it. I guess it will never stop haunting me again and again.

3 consecutive nights of crying.. Please don't let it happen again..

Maybe I'm not living up to expectations.

I don't want you to see me like this..


Friday, March 06, 2009


Good Luck

10:11 PM

Good luck to all the poor souls who officially became "saikang warriors" today. And most importantly, being under YIQI and JIANMING. I feel happy. In my 3 years of overseas trip with CO, I've never lived the life of a saikang warrior before :D

Oh well, good luck to yiqi and jianming! LOL! And also to CLAR who had like the worst job of all.

Haix.. I just found out that SYF is like seriously super soon. Or maybe, I was trying to avoid that FACT. Probably wasn't listening when they announced the date. But oh well..

22 APRIL 2009
8+ IN THE MORNING

And according to yiliang, ngee ann is right after us. Haha! GOOD LUCK TO THOSE EZ NGEE ANN PEOPLE! Hopefully our imba music will motivate you :D Haha.

Apparantly 7th May is not only CHUIDA DAY! But it's also yiliang's birthday. HAHAH! So coincidence ><

edit/ 7th May is also kuanliang's birthday. HAHAH! It's a birthday for liangs :D

Gongyan sort of reminded me of some of the EZ people.

Thanks junguang for coming :D
No thanks to jieheng who FORGOTTEN to buy tickets! Hahaa! Joke :P
And jarratt who couldn't get tickets
And yiliang who wasn't free
And the girls whom I don't know if they came or not :/

I MISS EZCO! Haha! I want some ezcogy outing :D Woohooo!

Zomg. I'm zi-highing again.

Today was actually a horribly emo day :/ I have split personality...


Thursday, March 05, 2009


Gongyan

9:47 PM

Hmm. I'm sleepy today..

I wonder if gongyan was really good enough :/

泪别阳关... It was much better during the rehearsal. Makes me so worried >< And of course, I made mistakes too. GOSH I FEEL LIKE KILLING MYSELF..

Oh well.. Then it was over...

黄河之水天上来... I don't really know what to say about this. I actually missed a note! I hope it wasn't so obvious, since daniel was also blowing.. :/ At least I think I wasn't as nervous as during the rehearsal.

I was emo-ing then cause of leibie.. And I guess it distracted me from worrying about the audience.

But I'm happy people actually thought it was good :D Guo lao shi even came to shake hands with me and daniel -.- Haha. I was super high then :D

Next was 茉莉花 and 东海渔歌.

I think those 2 were still OK in a sense. HAHA. At least our 音准 problem wasn't as bad as during rehearsal.

I really hope I didn't disappoint anyone that day. I know I was super disappointed with myself cause of 泪别. But ohhh nvmm. 加油了!

I found out about lots of interesting things today.. I have lots of scandalous seniors :D

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Talking to eunice lee about 'the future' now. HAHA. We really really MUST go overseas together next time! Maybe gather a few more people if possible and go to EUROPE together (:

I hope this plan won't just be like something you say and forget about ><

It'll be so fun going overseas together! Hahaha!


Monday, March 02, 2009


Guilty

10:51 PM

I feel guilty for thinking such things. For thinking this way.

Maybe I'm wrong, maybe I'm just afriad.. I hope it's just that.

I feel bad. I feel evil.. I don't deserve any of this..

ARGH...

And it's back to studying again..


Sunday, March 01, 2009


Superpoke

10:36 PM

Taking a break from history now. I seriously don't like the Kaiser now. Why did you have to exist!

Was playing around with superpoke just now. Haha. And something very amusing happened.

I was randomly clicking around and ended up giving a restraining order to everyone on my friend's list. Including eunice lee... Hahaha.

Then it ended up as...

Restraining order -> Throw a shoe -> Hug a tree together -> Become absolutely fabulous with -> GET MARRIED -> Kiss -> Cuddle -> Become BFFs -> Smile at -> Flirt with -> Have a slumber party with

HAHA! If you don't get it.. The red ones are sent by me. Hahah. Somehow I wonder how this will continue. xD

Ok.. Back to getting murdered by the Kaiser...

It's amazing to be able to torture millions of children and even adults after your death.



Tired and Uninspired
7:53 PM

My new skin says it all..

It was screwed up in IE I had to re-edit it anyway. So if it screws up anywhere else? Not my problem. Haha.

And the tagboard's down too. For now.. It's kind of pointless having a tagboard anyway :/

I feel AP now. History is again driving me crazy. I feel like not handing it up... To just heck care about it. Oh well.. School won't end just because of this.. 4 hours 4 mins left of Sunday...

So many things to worry about now. My head's going to go 'BOOM!'.

Good luck and good luck again..

我好想跳进黄河淹死算了 T.T