Chem test was screwed...
Chem file was screwed...
Math test tmr will be screwed...
I can't really concentrate fully on math now. And I hear the funeral suona blaring below my house. I shall not say anymore, it's disrespectful.
And lastly.. Thank you so much! Love you loads! It's not because of the small gift, you're just so sweet :D (though I bet you won't be reading this. Haha)
From here on, don't read if you don't like emo posts. Anyway, I've edited out lots of things and transfered it to my other blog instead. It's not for any of you to see too. Just a bit of ranting and totally non of your business. Also nothing much to see anyway.I was thinking of that letter we wrote to ourselves last PCCG period. That letter of self-encouragement (which will probably go to waste). I have alot on my mind these days. So don't mind me if I blank out. My road is just a little rough and nothing, almost nothing is going right. Problems and more piling up ontop of one another. Nowhere is nice to be anymore. There's nowhere to run to, to escape all of these. Facing you is like facing another problem. It's silly I know, but what can I do? You're just like a shadow, so near, yet you're not really there. Let's drop the facade and speak the truth. How I wish I had the courage to say that. Life isn't smooth sailing. That's one thing for sure. And this would be one of the roughest periods in my life for now. An obstacle I can't pass, a decision I cannot make, a heart I cannot stop. I'm thinking too much, I know. I'm making things worse, I know. I'm creating a problem that was never there, I know. But I can't stop myself from thinking, from making and from creating this obstacle.Getting over one thing, and creating another.. Is my life just going to continue like that? How I wish for a peace of mind. Keeping it blank is fine for me as well. I look at everyone around me, then look at who I am. I can't help but ask myself.. Who am I? I'm living in a world of masquerade. A world of lies and schemes. A world where everyone's hiding behind a mask. A mask that never comes off until it's too late. What to believe and what not? You never know. As always.. You never know until it's too late.
