Don't mind me for my short emo-ing in this post. It's hard to keep everything inside every single second of your life. Just skip the next paragraph and continue after that..

To forget would be the best thing that could happen. But the thing is, would it happen? The desire, the longing, the hope. All the muddled up feelings inside. And that tiny hope that I try my best to cling on to... Will my dreams come true? Or will it just remain as a dream? I hate reality, the reality that no one wants, that harsh reality... All that waiting, it leaves my feelings numb... Half of me wants to just leave it all behind, but the other half wants to hold on... What should I do? Only one person has the answer... But will I ever know?

Oh gosh, so emo-ish... Hahaha, I feel like deleting this. Naww.. I'll just leave it here. So Iowa has met up with again, some trouble, but we're now safe and sound again. I'm still wondering who's the culprit... So today we had another small problem.. Wonder if it'll become big again. Hope not! So yeah, today fenzu again, practiced shuang tu... WahhhH! I can't do it well.. So zibei... So slow lor, seriously... Even I can tell it's super slow. Gosh, I suck at blowing instruments.. So sad lar, I think it's like uber lag behind already. Then that liu yi hui whole day brag her shuang tu to me. ARGH... Shuang tu is like piano scales, irritating as hell!

Anyway, I have to go remake my POSB card alone lor. Must go to the place myself and do all the stupid procedures. My bad for losing the card. And waste another $5! I'm so broke now. I'm getting pocket money in advance. So now I'm gonna have to stop eating reccess to save back the money for all the books, notes and bdae present. (sorry to bear and jiamin! so late then get ur presents) Need some crap ACC books for $10.. Chinese textbook for around $4.. Present will be about $15-20 budget for both. $1 to pay back yihui(borrowed from her today for lunch). It means.. I need to last until 15 Feb with only $15 to eat! And who knows what other notes we'll need to pay for!? I'm officially bankrupted! T.T