I don't know what to say, how to say how I feel right now... I was taking the rice from the rice cooker just now, and because there was a small bowl of black pepper salmon above, I took this 'thing' to take it out... My mum was frying some fried eggs with prawn... I used the clipping thing to take the bowl out, then I slipped off and dropped on the floor...

The sauce splat on my mum's shorts, all over the floor... Then, she shouted at me, say if I didn't know how to take don't take... But I know! I take lots of times, only this time the bowl was small and it slipped! I really don't know what to say... She practically screamed at me at how I saw it... It's not like I threw the thing on the floor and wanted the sauce to dirty the kitchen and dirty her shorts! It's not like I did it on purpose! It's not like I wanted this to happen! Why must she shout at me? Why must she shout at me for something I didn't do on purpose..... And I was just talking to her about some things that happened at the teachers day celebration earlier, we were still laughing just now... Why..... I really don't know why..... After that I wanted to help but she ask me to go away... I really started crying then, I really did... I still asked her why she shouted and walked away...

I didn't want to face my mum then, I don't know how I could face her... I went to my room to watch TV, I don't even want to eat dinner anymore... I really hate today, why does everything have to get so screwed up... Not only this, seems like everything you know!? I really don't know what to say anymore..