Okay, now I'm sure about this hating life thing. This sucks. My results are surely dropping. I'm having english test tomorrow and science test on friday. I'm going to study soon. I'm like extremely worried. I keep falling. I feel like giving up now, I don't know what to do anymore. I try again and again, but always end up falling and hurting myself. This is so frustrating. People say, "work hard and everything will be fine, you'll be okay, just don't be lazy!" But how? Tell me true, you know I'm hopeless, I can't see the light. I'm really too distracted, I give up too easily, I couldn't last a second.
Must I really fail once to work hard? Is that the real meaning of it? I hope not, I really don't want to, I never once failed in my life. People say,"learn from your mistakes". But is it true? How do we learn? I have no guidence, no one to tell me where to go, when to start, or when to stop. Sometimes I just don't listen, I'm just stubborn. I really hope I can improve. I really hope so.
