I'm gonna change my skin on the weekends. Still have to edit the stuff.. Make the post area and all larger and wider.. Enlarge the picture and all.. Not that sick anymore. Though I'm still coughing..

Went to get my specs just now, jillian followed and we went to pastamania, as usual, spammed cheese like mad. Haha. Then after that went to learn how to put contacts.. Too bad dailies doesn't fit well, but the person say it's good if I wear contacts since my eyelash will poke and scratch my cornea everytime I blink. But.. my mum doesn't seem very enthusiastic about contacts.. So it probably won't be happening.. But my specs look nice. HAHA :D

Anyway, jillian was so excited watching me put things in my eyes and taking it out.. Then watching my pupils dilate and go back to normal ALOT of times when they check something to see if the contacts fit. She was like laughing and commenting that it's so cool that my pupils dilate and go back to normal in a matter of seconds =.= Hahaha. Jillian has a new hobby, and ambition. No more being a nun! LOL. Then in the end when the person put this drop of orange thing in my eye she was like 'OMG, your eyes are orange'. Seriously, that time, everything you see is tinted orange..! After that we were talking about having a liquid sunglasses like that.. Hahaha! Tinted and protects your eyes from UV rays. Such a wonderful idea. HAHA.

Playing cabal again. FINALLY got master sword skill. 5 more magic level to master magic skill.. After my magic leveled I'm gonna chiong my level until I'm like 60 before I start chionging skills again. Anyway. Some crazy person just tried to pk me when I was punching. Maybe he thought I was afk.. He's probably about the same level as me, same suit and all. The funny part started when I equiped my sword and used a few skills.. He didn't fight back, just ran, haha. And because I was pissed he disturb me from my skill grinding and reading my book, I chased him till he was out of my territory. Haha. It was fun, cannot deny it. Didn't kill him, but it doesn't matter anyway. He was still nearby after that, but didn't dare come near me again, haha. Entertained me from my boring skill grinding :D

I'm so sick.. Sore throat plus flu.. But, who knows what's with my mum today. Told her I'm really sick but she just throws me a packet of flu medicine and asks me to eat it, said it'll help.. Whatever.. I guess I'll just have to suffer another day in school blowing my nose every 5 seconds and holding the tissue on my nose 24/7...

ARGH.. I'm in no mood to blog. TATA...

Heard this book was nice so I decided to buy it.. "the five people you meet in heaven". Love Mitch Albom's books.

"Lost love is still love. It takes a different form, that's all. You can't see their smile or bring them food or tousle their hair or move them around a dance floor. But when those senses weaken, another heightens. Memory. Memory becomes your partner. You nurture it. You hold it. You dance with it."

Something's burning downstairs. Not sure if it's because of the funeral or people are just beginning to burn stuff. It's hurting my nose. And it's not helping my throat. I should just not go to school on monday..

Went to make my specs today. Didn't choose the one with all the different colour choices since they come in a set.. And one specs only have 4 colours. And I didn't like the colour combination. Chose one emporio armani one instead X).. Haha. Actually I spotted this Gucci.. Even my dad says it's really really nice. But that's like 500+, he says I'll have to wait till I'm older before I can get such an expensive specs. The one I bought is just about 300+.. Not including lenses of course.. But there is a small discount.. End price didn't pass 400. Going to collect it on tues. And my father asked me to try out contacts to see if I can use. But.. On tues I'll have to spend like 1 hour there learning how to put it in my eye first. Gosh... Lucky I have lots of time to spend on that day.

Went to buy other stuff later and got this sandals. Pretty cool, and it's Elle.. Hahaha. Damn I'm materialistic =.= My mum bought another really cool shoes, it could be worn like normal slippers, and I'm probably gonna steal it someday to wear :) Lucky her feet are as small as mine. Signed up for membership at world of sports also to get the discount, haha, and a couple of free items. Apparantly it's quite worth it. A bag, water bottle and socks. You could actually choose either a bad, soccer ball or a basketball. But luckily, there's no sportsman in my family so it's the bag, and it's MINE. Haha.

Met up with Eileen and Muni later to go for the EZCO junior college performance. It's so sad DHSCO senior high performed di tanjong. Could've performed something better like ju song.. Even mang chun is better... Great job for all the dunmanians and ex-dunmanians that performed! Haha. I think they rock, seriously. And I realise.... Well, I'll skip this part :D Anyway, ju hua tai is so cool! We should request for modern music too. Haha. Ermm. qian li zhi wai? Haha. Joking. Any nice songs would be great :D

Chem test was screwed...

Chem file was screwed...

Math test tmr will be screwed...

I can't really concentrate fully on math now. And I hear the funeral suona blaring below my house. I shall not say anymore, it's disrespectful.

And lastly.. Thank you so much! Love you loads! It's not because of the small gift, you're just so sweet :D (though I bet you won't be reading this. Haha)

From here on, don't read if you don't like emo posts. Anyway, I've edited out lots of things and transfered it to my other blog instead. It's not for any of you to see too. Just a bit of ranting and totally non of your business. Also nothing much to see anyway.

I was thinking of that letter we wrote to ourselves last PCCG period. That letter of self-encouragement (which will probably go to waste).

I have alot on my mind these days. So don't mind me if I blank out. My road is just a little rough and nothing, almost nothing is going right. Problems and more piling up ontop of one another. Nowhere is nice to be anymore. There's nowhere to run to, to escape all of these.

Facing you is like facing another problem. It's silly I know, but what can I do? You're just like a shadow, so near, yet you're not really there. Let's drop the facade and speak the truth. How I wish I had the courage to say that.

Life isn't smooth sailing. That's one thing for sure. And this would be one of the roughest periods in my life for now. An obstacle I can't pass, a decision I cannot make, a heart I cannot stop. I'm thinking too much, I know. I'm making things worse, I know. I'm creating a problem that was never there, I know. But I can't stop myself from thinking, from making and from creating this obstacle.

Getting over one thing, and creating another.. Is my life just going to continue like that? How I wish for a peace of mind. Keeping it blank is fine for me as well.

I look at everyone around me, then look at who I am. I can't help but ask myself.. Who am I?

I'm living in a world of masquerade. A world of lies and schemes. A world where everyone's hiding behind a mask. A mask that never comes off until it's too late. What to believe and what not? You never know. As always.. You never know until it's too late.

I hate 2.4 run. It's not ALL my fault I can't run fast. The weather is like.. Cooking me.. I'm DEHYDRATED.. I dehydrate easily.. I think it's because I hate drinking water.. In a sense.. I just drink very little water. Well.. But partly is my fault.. Not exercising. Haha. Omgosh, my cabal just hanged on me, and it hanged along with my comp..

Anyway.. Went mugging at national library just now. It's like, flooded with dunmanians. Mainly gigabyters, well, all but 1. There's like 8 people from 3G. Too many people we had to split. We actually came at different times. Me, jiamin, shilun, chunseng and yingying came first. Then was gillian, tongwei and denise. Then edmund. Haha. At first gen was eating with us at hans, but she had to go :( I can conclude that dunmanians are muggers. Haha. Went back at 7+ with jiamin and shilun and crapped the whole journey home with jiamin. Her wonderful change of lyrics for 'home'. Haha. That singapore NDP song.. And the daniao song from tong hua.

Have to continue studying later on. There's still covalent bond to study >.<

Good luck to me! :D

Second Hand Serenade - Fall For You
This is not what I intended
I always swore to you i'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may of failed
But I have loved you from the start
Ohhhh

But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible

So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I'm yours to keep
And hold onto your words
Cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When your asleep

Haven't been blogging alot. First thing, I don't really feel like it. Second, I don't really have anything to say. I know I have a boring life..

Anyway, lots of test coming up, and still there's homework, cabal and now final fantasy crisis core. Cabal can be multitasked since I'm skill grinding now. It'll be multitasked along with TV, msn and either one of the above. Haha. Yes, such a boring life.

Forget it, I really have nothing much to say..

I love 'Bang Bang You're Dead'. Especially the play.

'So you make your face a mask. A mask that hides your face. A face that hides the pain. A pain that eats your heart. A heart nobody knows'

The ending part of the show when they play Trevor's video was super nice and so touching. It's so true. Everything happens for a reason. And when the play begins, its super nice too. I feel like watching it again..

Anyway, I don't feel very good today. Tired and depressed. Emo-ing mood. Been thinking about some stuff and.. I don't know. Just felt like crying it out then and there. I thought no one bothered, no one ever does.. But maybe I'm wrong. Really thanks to those who tried to cheer me up.. Some of you, particularly one of you, haha, I would never expect. I'll try not to think too much :)

It's never worth it. I should've learnt from my mistake. I'm falling into a point of no return.

Thanks weiqi for intro-ing me this song! Love it loads. Haha. You sing cao ge song really very nice! Can't stand it! Haha. Don't emo! That day in school you were emo-ing the whole day. >.<

Stupid moodle doesn't like me. I can't choose my electives! By the time the person fix it all the nice ones will be gone. This is so unfair.. Then I'll have to survive through boring electives that I don't like.. Like tea appreciation.... Chinese painting.... Some weird science stuff.... Unfair! I want culinary... This sucks..

Haha. Used my laptop and amazingly I could get in. Still abit pissed off from just now. And I still want culinary.. But... I chose east meets west.. The food elective which lets you eat food. Hahaha. Eunice lee was so happy about tt elective. Joined with her.. She said jovina chose that too.. JOIN!

Anyway.. I'm still feeling a little sad today. Was okay at first until the rest started emo-ing.. And somehow I got affected and now.. Yeah... Maybe it's fate.. But it's just not right.. Maybe I should just end it here. Stop the pain.

I don't like Tsar... I don't like the French guy either.. And I don't like Mao.. I'm gonna die...!!

If history test is tomorrow.. GG to me.. I've almost forgotten all about SBQ.. The last time I did it was like.. last year who knows when..

Anw.. School is just, one word... STRESS... I feel like skipping school..

I have like so many late math assignment and I'm totally clueless about quadratic inequalities... Hmm.. Let's list it all out..

-Chinese Test (nxt wk)
-History Test (tmr?!)
-Math Test (wk 5)
-Math assignment 4&5 (tho I've finished 4 already)
-LA violence essay
-LA comprehension
-Chem practical (tmr?!)

And maybe there's other stuff I forgotten about.. I'm not even close to done! And I forgot to bring home chem file.. WOT the hell :D.. Haha.

My grade 8 is so screwed! I can't stand it.. Fugue is just so difficult. And nocturne makes my head ACHE like crazy.. These days are just.. Too much..


I really don't get what you're thinking. Stop confusing me.. Stop making me think so much.. If you want to be all nice, BE NICE, if not then just stop it all okay? Maybe I'm just over sensitive, but stop it. You're too much to handle.. Stop acting like you care if you don't.