I thought it over. I thought through many times already. I finally decided on something. I no longer care about this anymore. I'll cherish it as long as it last, I will. But when you decided to leave, I will not force you to stay. I don't know if this have ever got to you. I know it must have. We are clearly 2 different person. I don't care if I have many or less friends as long as they care and are true friends.

You are different I can tell. You can talk to people easily like you've known them for years, but I can't. Enough about you now. I can't seem to talk to them about how I really feel, how my life really is. I can't seem to say it. Some people may know who "they" is, but some lucky people will not understand me. What have I done to deserve this? I always think...Why me and not someone else? I've lost my appetite, I couldn't eat much now. Yesterday I only ate an ice pop and dinner, which like my mum said, very little rice and not much other stuff. Today, breakfast, 2 pieces of bread, an egg and a piece of...Meat? And half a packet of chicken rice. It's torture I say.

I don't have the energy to stay up now, I couldn't last till after 1 like I usually do at night. I'm so tired now, but why? I woke up at only around 11 today. I wish one day I would just sleep, fall into an everlasting slumber. Goodnight.