Over.. Or not?

Just got home from SYF rehearsal at SCH.

It almost felt like SYF was over.. But if it were really over, I would be screaming and crying my eyes out instead of feeling all gooey with butterflies in my stomach.

When I stepped on stage, it almost felt like my whole body turned into jelly. It was only then I realised how nervous I actually was. I was shaking non stop and almost went into hyper-ventilation mode.

It got better after we started chan ge and I somehow managed to relax a little. But when lei bie started it was total panic. And when I heard jiechong's first note I almost broke down. Goshh..

It's a wonder how nerve wreaking it was to be on stage at that time, thinking it was SYF, hoping to be able to do your best. I hope SYF don't end up like this. If not I'll really jump into 黄河 and just kill myself.

Now.. I just hope my cough gets better.. My throat's killing me :/